Child of God, wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, quilter, basket lover, amateur photographer, flower and vegetable gardener …….. some a little of who I am, some a lot of who I am, and all a part of me. When I started quilting several years ago, it sparked a passion in my creative side that I never knew existed. I fell in love with it from the very start. I love everything about it, from choosing the fabrics and designing the quilt until the time I finish the last stitch of the binding and everything in between.

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Just Blah

This is kinda how I am feeling this week and I am not sure why.  Yes, I have a lot on my mind.  Yes, my job is stressful.  Yes, we have a new household member with Alzheimer's disease and I am the primary caregiver.  Yes, Thanksgiving is near and I know I will be almost too tired after cleaning, shopping, and cooking to enjoy dinner and my family.  Yes, cold weather has kicked in and with it my joints and muscles are crying.  Yes, my washer and dryer BOTH tore up within two days of each other last week and the new purchases put a big dent in the money I had put aside for Christmas shopping.  Yes, I have a lot going on, but then who doesn't?  I am trying really hard to put on my big girl undies and snap out of this whatever-it-is that is going on with me.  I am usually the one who sees the cup as half full.  I am usually the one who always finds the bright side of everything.  I know I have so much to be thankful for, and even in the midst of my blahs I am thanking God daily for all He does for us.  My house is warm, my pantry is stocked full of food, my family is all healthy.  Ugghhh, I just do not like feeling like this.  I know I am physically tired ... more so than I have been in a long time.  I also feel emotionally drained and even kind of spiritually blah, as much as I hate to admit that one.  I need to step back and regroup and try to enjoy the season that is supposed to be full of joy.  Just weary .....
Posted by Rhonda M at 7:35 PM

2 comments:

  1. Janet O.November 15, 2012 at 8:13 PM

    So order pizza for Thanksgiving, buy some pumpkin pies and relax and enjoy the family, giving yourself permission to not "do" everything the traditional way this year. There is too much on your plate, with all of the upheaval at home. You could be experiencing a mild depression and heaping "have tos" on your plate doesn't help. Don't give yourself a guilt trip about what you don't do. This year just skip the traditions that create stress and have fun being different this one time. You may find you like some of the changes well enough to repeat them in the future.
    I used to have very labor intensive traditions for Christmas Eve dinner and Christmas morning brunch. One year I was dealing with depression and the family convinced me to skip the Christmas Eve dinner and we have had pizza every year since. It is so relaxing!
    Okay, I will take off the psychologist hat now and say, I have been praying for you. I hope you can find joy in the holidays.

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  2. DonieneNovember 18, 2012 at 5:29 PM

    Been out of town - so missed this post until today! Agree with Janet - enjoy and let some things go!!

    Blessings!!

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